Just got a new cell phone plan to save me about $35 a month

Moving out on my own first time next week, getting a studio apartment

Going to a new school

stayin' posi





How about you?

I did pretty well in my exams and I'll be starting college next month, so at the moment I feel quite positive about everything.

Just moved into a new house with some very close friends, for rent so low it's criminal, with a flat expansive roof, perfect for roof-drinking and roof-singing with roof-homies. Plus, there's a boat. On the roof I mean. This is true. A boat, for no good goddamn reason at all. Sometimes I read in it. More often I drink & sleep in it, but reading: sometimes. In my roofboat. Positive as fuck.

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a million faces at my feet & all I see are dark eyes

This year has just been awesome. Wasn't even an intentional TMG reference that's how amazing life is right now.

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It's hard to stay positive when time plans go wrong all the time at work because three colleagues are on holiday and I have to fill in for all three of them so my own work isn't getting done at all.

But: The boat on the roof really made my day. I guess I'll be dreaming about it a little now while waiting for things to sort themselves out.

Oh, and good luck and tons of positivity to all of you!

Cheers, Doc



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Holy shit a roofboat. I am envious.

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YES

if you wouldn't trade your current situation for anything, you are happy.

humility and gratitude are two things missing from a sad person. it's impossible to be sad if you are humble and gracious.

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mike10k
humility and gratitude are two things missing from a sad person. it's impossible to be sad if you are humble and gracious.

I have to disagree here, Mike. As sad as I am recently, I'm humble and grateful for every new fucking day I can get out of bed, can do my work, can listen to music, can smile with my friends or can think of my girlfriend or even be with her.

Life's wonderful and I am thankful for it, and I know my humble little place here in this world. Maybe I'm not hopeless or cynical, but still I am sad...

Maybe it's because there's a difference between sadness and self-centered sadness (which may be the more common form of sadness)...

im with doc. i'm glad to be alive, but i've been happier

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JesusChristILoveYouYesIDo
im with doc. i'm glad to be alive, but i've been happier

Tell me about your happier times!

Mine were when I was able to just be in the here-and-now. When I didn't have those metaphysical thoughts that led me into nothingness, you know, the great big black out there. Sometimes in the evenings I sit there and think about the coldness outside. Outside my room, my house, outside in space, I don't know.

Pascal wrote: "The eternal silence of these infinite spaces fills me with dread." It's the same with me, just that it fills me with dread and humility and a kind of sad peace.

There was a time when I could just ignore those infinite spaces and their dread, where I could see the world not just as some small illuminated spot in the midst of darkness and cold, but as the world, you know. Those were happy times, I guess. Thanks to chemistry...

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Doc Sanchez
Maybe it's because there's a difference between sadness and self-centered sadness (which may be the more common form of sadness)...

maybe so. i don't know the difference between sadnesses, but if i were to guess, i probably have experienced the self-centered sadness mostly. i guess i don't really think about it anymore.

i'm old though. my sadness got old.

so i choked him in its sleep.

sometimes i remember him.

but most times i don't.

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clams on the half shell and roller skates; roller skates.

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JesusChristILoveYouYesIDo
im with doc. i'm glad to be alive, but i've been happier

and you've been sadder.

things can always be better. and things can always be worse. think about it. i think it's true.

that's what proves that everything's perfect at all times.

perfectly crappy sometimes, but hey.

that's life.

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clams on the half shell and roller skates; roller skates.

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JesusChristILoveYouYesIDo
im with doc. i'm glad to be alive, but i've been happier

Tell me about your happier times!

Mine were when I was able to just be in the here-and-now. When I didn't have those metaphysical thoughts that led me into nothingness, you know, the great big black out there. Sometimes in the evenings I sit there and think about the coldness outside. Outside my room, my house, outside in space, I don't know.

Pascal wrote: "The eternal silence of these infinite spaces fills me with dread." It's the same with me, just that it fills me with dread and humility and a kind of sad peace.

There was a time when I could just ignore those infinite spaces and their dread, where I could see the world not just as some small illuminated spot in the midst of darkness and cold, but as the world, you know. Those were happy times, I guess. Thanks to chemistry...

man!

the eternal dark makes me so happy!

just knowing it's out there is so great.

being inconsequential is liberating.

i'm free to be happy or sad. depends on what i want.

or if i need prozac, depends on if i get on it or not.

we are always doing what we want. that, or we're making bullshit excuses about why we aren't.
























































BUTTSLAM!

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mike10k
i'm old though. my sadness got old.

so i choked him in its sleep.

sometimes i remember him.

but most times i don't.

Shouldn't this be in the poetry thread?

not very poetic.

it only would have been poetic if he were younger and able to put up a fight.

as it was, i just watched as his eyes stared straight into mine. and then through mine.

and then not at mine at all. up at nothing.

then i let go of his neck and farted.

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hahahaha

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Doc Sanchez
Tell me about your happier times!

middle school was pretty great. I used to go to my friends house after school or baseball practice and listen to music and play games and whatnot. good times.

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mike10k
i'm old though. my sadness got old.

so i choked him in its sleep.

sometimes i remember him.

but most times i don't.

Shouldn't this be in the poetry thread?

That's what I thought, too.

Thanks for all your words, I'll think about them. Meditate about them. And then turn the music up loud and have some fun. Maybe.

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mike10k
i'm old though. my sadness got old.

so i choked him in its sleep.

sometimes i remember him.

but most times i don't.

Shouldn't this be in the poetry thread?

this.

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The first thing that distinguishes a writer is that he is most alive when alone. - Martin Amis

I'm old, my sadness is old

I cling to it still.

Like a school aged child who holds on to the scrap silk fringe from their favorite blanket.

I like your outlook Mike.I hope to reach it one day. Until then I shall endeavor to persevere until I get a roof boat.



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it's the only outlook i can have if i want to be happy.

there were times when i didn't want to be happy. and i surely wasn't.

if you're not getting what you want, you're bullshitting yourself and the world.

get what you want people!

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clams on the half shell and roller skates; roller skates.

but if i want to go to heaven, so i have to do a whole bunch of stuff i dont want to do?

I do agree with you Mike. It's just hard to pull that trigger sometimes. Gosh Darn it! I'm voting for Romney! I always have to inject my poor sense of humor into every comment, just ask my wife.

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JesusChristILoveYouYesIDo
but if i want to go to heaven, so i have to do a whole bunch of stuff i dont want to do?

that didn't make any sense whatsoever.

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clams on the half shell and roller skates; roller skates.

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deeply shallow
Gosh Darn it! I'm voting for Romney!

i actually found this to be quite funny.

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clams on the half shell and roller skates; roller skates.

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mike10k
get what you want people!

there's a lyric from an Amanda Palmer Song that goes:

"i've already spent too much time
doing things i didn't want to.
so if i wanna sit and drink red wine,
you can bet your black ass that i'm going to!"

which is a pretty solid outlook on doing things.

i'm interested in this thread because my friends around me seem to be suffering from depression more and more these days, and i want to help them through that.

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let's get dressed up in costumes and dance by the bar.