is this all that life is?

grow up. go to school. have some fun times in your teen and twenties. maybe get a job, find a spouse. start a family in your thirties, enjoy that as much as possible, which won't be much since both you and your spouse will have to work full time and day care costs an arm and a leg. work full time until you're 65 then do more fun stuff, hopefully you don't lose track of your spouse along the way. watch your family grow as you shrink smaller and smaller. then you get old or sick, all your friends are dead. your spouse dies, all grey. buncha bad stuff happens like weeds all around the good stuff flowers we once tended. we go to a hospice or caretaking facility and turn into dust. all alone.

i think that's fucking bullshit!



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i'm fuckin bored. i don't think i ever get "depressed," but i definitely have my down times. this must be one of them. too much work. not enough fun. when i ask myself the question that usually lifts me out of every funk, "is this how it's gonna be forever?" i either don't want to answer or i'm not sure. the times that i'm sure that this is NOT how it's gonna be forever, those are good times. those are times when i'm all there. but times like now...i'm not all here. i'm fuckin bored. i don't need interesting books. i don't need awesome music to listen to. i have a great life and no right to complain whatsoever. all this greatness is fucking boring, and i'm probably asking for a lightning bolt just talking about it. oh well. it's the fuckin internet. don't read this, destiny. you'll just laugh.

i'm in a limbo crossroads. i'm not somewhere. i'm inbetween wheres right now. i'm neither here nor there. i'm an unsider. an upsider. an outlier. an out and out liar. i gotta move. i need a new drug. i need a new job. i need a beer and a warm outside and some sunshine and a back step that i can sit on. i need to relax, get outta here. i'm stuck, in some muddy muck, and i'm not wearing sensible shoes because they're all packed up. nowhere to go, nothing to do, all fun no jack fun time no play here when there up beat goes when for there be no fine ball terry ball. just another normal day after day after day. just another great day. whoopee. i'm a complainer. hi human race, i've finally joined you!

but you'll never make me grow up!

All of those things are about taking care of yourself and procreation. That's not what life is about, but that's what we need to do in order to maintain and preserve life. What matters is the little stuff in between. The goals, accomplishments, pleasures, pains, good times, bad times, Cher; that's what really matters.

little things are a dime-a-dozen. i notice tons of little things. i notice big and middle size things too, and the almost big and middle size things that are inbetween the big and middle size things. i'm not sure that things matter at all. big things little things, what begins with things. no things matter. nothing matters. what matter matter? we're all made of matter. we were created from it, we are it, and we will stay it after we're dead. that's life. death is life. again and again, i don't understand why i have to keep reminding myself. life includes procreation (or practicing to procreate) as well as taking care of yourself. but no matter how many times you procreate or how well you take care of yourself, or how well you notice the big small medium size things all around and inbetween your toes....death is what life is.

fucking death.

fuck you, life and death!

fuck you very much!

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is this all that life is?

grow up. go to school. have some fun times in your teen and twenties. maybe get a job, find a spouse. start a family in your thirties, enjoy that as much as possible, which won't be much since both you and your spouse will have to work full time and day care costs an arm and a leg. work full time until you're 65 then do more fun stuff, hopefully you don't lose track of your spouse along the way. watch your family grow as you shrink smaller and smaller. then you get old or sick, all your friends are dead. your spouse dies, all grey. buncha bad stuff happens like weeds all around the good stuff flowers we once tended. we go to a hospice or caretaking facility and turn into dust. all alone.

i think that's fucking bullshit!

i don't see any of that as bullshit. you are taking major life events and putting them into short, cynical statements. but if you really look at them, they are all immense and incredible. for example, "grow up." doesn't that mean, learning to talk, learning to poop, learning to have friends. learning to have enemies. learning to swim. learning to ride a bike. learning to tie your shoes. meeting a girl. loving a girl. having your heart broken. having your heart cured. listening to music. learning to play music. learning to love music. learning to draw. learning to jump rope. watching a football game with your dad. learning to drive. hitting a home run. striking out. peeing in your pants in 3rd grade. if you're a woman, having your first period. your first kiss. second base. third base. home run!! learning how to operate a condom so it doesn't rip. learning that sex feels better without a condom, but isn't such a great idea. getting a fake id. throwing up from too much booze. smoking weed. going to the first show that you really wanted to go to but weren't old enough. and that's just "growing up," and only part of it. don't get me started on the rest of it.

to quote ghost mice: "I will not sing another song for the dead / Because the dead, they are not listening. / From now on all the songs that I sing / Will be songs sung for the living."

To life!

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i'm in a limbo crossroads. i'm not somewhere. i'm inbetween wheres right now. i'm neither here nor there. i'm an unsider. an upsider. an outlier. an out and out liar. i gotta move. i need a new drug. i need a new job. i need a beer and a warm outside and some sunshine and a back step that i can sit on. i need to relax, get outta here. i'm stuck, in some muddy muck, and i'm not wearing sensible shoes because they're all packed up. nowhere to go, nothing to do, all fun no jack fun time no play here when there up beat goes when for there be no fine ball terry ball. just another normal day after day after day. just another great day. whoopee. i'm a complainer. hi human race, i've finally joined you!

but you'll never make me grow up!

Mike, you are exactly where you want to be. If you didn't want to be there, you wouldn't be.






















































The way I see it, you're letting Desire get the better of you. /mytw0pennies

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If there's somewhere you can, I'm gonna suggest gardening. Physically destroy something, set something up to grow, and get covered in dirt. Some of the weeds are charming, after all. I'm sorry if it sucks at the moment, mike. >>don't get me started on the rest of it.<< And thanks for that WC 'cause it's all too easy to get reductive sometimes.

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i know!

i'll make GRATITUDE MY ATTITUDE!

i'm just butt hurt cuz nothin seems to be going my way lately.

i'll get over it.

the nature of problems is this.

you have a problem.

you get over it.

you have another problem.

you get over it.

nature just fucking sucks.

i'm gonna plow nature under and grow another problem.

i can hear god sayin

you want somethin to cry about, I'LL give you somethin to cry about.

i say bring it on.

cryin's better than dyin.

and you can quote me on that.

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cryin's better than dyin.

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cryin's better than dyin.

StatusF wins.

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cryin's better than dyin.

true, true, true.

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The first thing that distinguishes a writer is that he is most alive when alone. - Martin Amis

just seems so repeteteteteive. rinse, wash, rinse, repeat. i'm stuck in a fuckin rinse cycle. even god get's bored, s'why he created sunday. and you can quote me on that too!

wwoof it out. If you don't already know about wwoof, google it.

Just going to throw out a few songs lyrics:

And the rent is too high living here between reasons to live...
One more time, try. Stand with your hands in your pockets and stare at the smudge on a newspaper sky, and ask it to rain a new name for everything.

our efforts won’t add up
any great amount
get one chance to make your gesture down here
I wanna make mine count

there's a height beyond skyscrapers there's a distance beyond the freeway
more than pictures in a magazine more than tragedy in a rock and roll song
it's more than the actions you know it's safe to make
it's more than money could ever buy
are we working to live and die in american cities,
living to work and die in american cities,
and dying for what we worked

Also, that long thing WC said.

Mmmm... Bride.

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is this all that life is?

grow up. go to school. have some fun times in your teen and twenties. maybe get a job, find a spouse. start a family in your thirties, enjoy that as much as possible, which won't be much since both you and your spouse will have to work full time and day care costs an arm and a leg. work full time until you're 65 then do more fun stuff, hopefully you don't lose track of your spouse along the way. watch your family grow as you shrink smaller and smaller. then you get old or sick, all your friends are dead. your spouse dies, all grey. buncha bad stuff happens like weeds all around the good stuff flowers we once tended. we go to a hospice or caretaking facility and turn into dust. all alone.

i think that's fucking bullshit!

That sounds about right.

Did someone say the rent is too damn high?
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the nature of problems is this.

Yet again, T-Rex, Dromiceiomimus and Utahraptor are all over this shit:

CLICK

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let's get dressed up in costumes and dance by the bar.

who needs tv when i got t-rex!

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this is my attitude right now. fuck gratitude!

it's a RIP OFF!

i'm just kiddin. i'm doin alright today. if i want things to happen i either have to be patient or make things happen.

and since i can't make things happen, i'm just gonna be patient.

you people fucking rock though. i love posting here. saves me a fortune in psychiatrist bills.

also saves my would-be psychiatrist from going crazy!

i have been shown the answer

and so

i will share it with you

BE CONTENT

that is all


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Uh, isnt that what I said?

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A fly can't bird but a bird can fly.